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I MISS MY BEST FRIEND

*continues inserting pictures of people that I miss*

I MISS EVERYBODY. 

Can I miss myself too?????????

I miss the not-so-vulnerable, not-so-dumb, not-so-gullible old me, who doesn't have a lot of thoughts on her mind every single second. 

I don't want time to continue ticking by. I hope time can stop at this instant. I don't want to grow up. I don't want my parents to grow old. Because I know I will end up being alone. I don't want to be alone. I hate being alone. I know this is such an irony because I keep pushing people away. I hate myself for being so ironic. I hate myself for being like this. Why am I not perfect or maybe just a better person and friend? I hate these thoughts in my mind. I hate myself for all these annoying feelings that can never go away. I hate them and I wish they would go away, right now now now. 

Just days when I go a little overboard with my thoughts and feelings.