Desire.

School has been crazy, especially when my period is here and all I wanna do is rage at everyone and be like "I hate everyone". Oh well. Training today was t e d i o u s. My legs are aching and I can totally feel my muscles growing and my thighs expanding fml :(

No idea what to feel anymore. Feeling so dumb to maintain the status quo even after getting hurt and disappointed over and over again. Can't change no matter how hard I try... Or is it just me not trying hard enough?? Feeling so fucked with this mood and this hormones explosion. (umm jk that's really exaggerating) Well well who asked me to love pushing away people who care so much? Can't really help tho, just dislike/not used to the feeling of being cared for. SO, karma is coming at me lately. All I can say is serve me right for being such a bitch. K. 

I miss everyone D: