WARNING: THIS IS A RANTING POST.

FEEL FREE TO SKIP THIS POST IF YOU THINK I'M IRRITATING. 

and just when i thought everything was finally fine..............i was wrong. i hate my clique. maybe hate is not the word. UNHAPPY. i'm unhappy with my clique. i know i shouldn't be saying this over here. but whatever. everyone is just trying to show me that none of this is important. so here i am trying to show you what i think. i really have no idea why the hell am i the only one forever trusting people so easily, cherishing things, and then getting hurt. i should have known right? that everything would end up like this? you guys have no idea how i'm feeling. no one will fucking understand. on my darkest days, they were the ones who were there for me, cheered me up and stuffs. when everyone left, they were the only people who stayed. now i'm putting them as my top priority, this is how they fucking treat me. i really don't understand. WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?! i think i'm treating everything too seriously. look. we are a clique, aren't we? we're supposed to trust each other, not keep secrets among yourselves and.. you know. 

and at the end of the day, my clique, my classmates, people around me, just make me realise that, BEING ALONE IS OKAY. never in my entire life have i ever felt so...distant from people before. i would always find a friend to walk with me to the hall, or to wherever. but now... i don't even bother. i just don't like to be with my clique, with my classmates. i dislike my classmates. i don't feel comfortable with them at all. its like everyone in my class can't be trusted. 

so i've decided on one thing. KEEP AWAY FROM EVERYONE. DO NOT TRUST ANYONE. tired of getting hurt like nobody's business. gonna just concentrate on my studies and not friendships/relationships. only blogger can be trusted. :') i love my blog. really don't know what to do if you don't exist, that's all. end of rant bye.