sometimes, i'm really really tired of feeling like this. so empty, so lost, so confused, so crazy, so mad, so irritating, so insecure, so....... i really don't know what else. its just a mixture of a little of everything.
sometimes, i wish that someone, anyone, will just care for me, give me a hug, tell me that everything's gonna be fine, and hush me to sleep. maybe i'm expecting too much, call me silly or whatever, but this is really what i want. its been so long since i've had that really nice, warm feeling.
sometimes, i hope i'm not so weak, stop crying so easily, and put a stop to all those thinkings, shut off those horrible shitty feelings. and when i'm on the verge of crying, i hope i can just blink away the tears and smile.
sometimes, i convince myself that i'm alright, that i'm strong and i'll get over all these. i mean, what's so hard about pulling myself up? i'm someone who can smile and laugh easily. but are all these smiles real? or am i just fooling myself and everyone around me? should i just continue acting like this? convincing everyone that i'm alright?

everyone that comes, eventually goes. they just throw me aside, like i'm nothing. really, it sucks. what was i to them? did i mean anything to them? really? i'm so worthless?

ass people. just freaking get out of my life if you're intending to be those come-and-go-friend. i won't mind. go now so that i won't suffer so much in the future.

had enough of all these shits. major moronic morons.