i can still feel my head on your shoulder.

it's 18th again........................................................................

ok hi here's a photo of me to start my post with.

i think i look very fat here LOL. ok erm................. i stayed at home for the whole day today. hannah's supposed to come over to my house today but something cropped up. oh well. tried to sleep but.. cant sleep. -___- 

day 17 - BULLET YOUR DAY. 

• wake up.
• wash up.
• ate breakfast.
• went over to nanny's house.
• played with my ipod.
• watched korean drama.
• used my laptop.
• had lunch.
• used my laptop.
• tried to sleep.
• gave up. 
• munched on biscuits.
• played poker card with uncle. 
• bathe.
• using laptop now.

ok i know this is really boring but WHAT TO DO T_T 

practised my guitar ytd night and i realised that my fingers kinda grew short............. i pressed G7 easily last week but ytd, i couldn't reach G7 and my fingers were really painful from all the stretching.. D: I KNOW THIS IS RIDICULOUS BUT.. ITS TRUE T_T

oh and i looked through my photos taken this year from january to april. i saw this girl smiling very very very happily in those photos. how long has it been since she last smiled like that? miss that wide smile, miss those people in those photos, miss that guy in those photos, miss everything that happened when those photos were taken. things has passed. no matter how hard she wants things to be back the way they are, they will never be. and they will never ever be the same again. the people will never be the same again. that guy will never love her again. that girl will never have that wide smile on her face again. so what if she tried her best not to post emo posts on her blog on the 17th? she still feels the pain. she still has silly thoughts. she still wants that guy back. she still wants him to be happy. she still wants to be loved again. she still misses him, a lot. 

ok its getting really emotional. bai.