永不放弃，因为爱你

feel so suckish today. results back. although i've passed my maths, but...the rest are really disappointing. feel like a fucking major failure. really feel like dying. i mean like, then there will be no worries, no heartaches. fuck everything k. haissssssss. and i really dont know what subject combinations to take.

spending my afternoons sleeping like a pig. just because i dont want to remember anything, just because i dont want to go through the pain, or just take it as an excuse to avoid everything. sometimes i forget that you are no longer mine, forget that you are not here in sg anymore, forget to forget you, forget im supposed to move on, forget that things are not longer the same. sometimes i wonder, what are you doing, worrying whether you're quarrelling with your siblings or parents, worrying if you've gotten used to life there. and...i wonder if you're doing the same too.. still not sure why i am worrying about you tho. pretty...weird? haahhaha..

texting siang joo now. hopefully i'll be able to decide which subjects i want to take. k bye.